When I started this gig, I thought people would come looking for me.
Come looking for my help.
But the more I'm in it, I realize
it's me...
Looking for them.
Coffee?
Uh, yeah, thanks.
- Blind date for breakfast? - Not a date.
Too bad.
And I see them everywhere.
The faces of addiction are all around me,
and I can't look away.
Anything else?
Oh, I'm good. Thanks.
And it's not just me who sees them.
It's my crew, too.
No. I don't know. Listen, Akani, it...
Uh... It just died. The El Camino just died.
It's not running.
Yeah. No, tell William i'll be there as soon as I can.
No, I... I got it covered.
I'm good. I'm... I'm hanging up now.
Now they have this vision,
and they see it everywhere,
just like me.
They didn't ask for this journey... I get that...
But they followed me on it.
Thank you.
Oh. Thank you. Look. You got treats.
Treats.
Hey, man.
- Usual? - Please.
Hey. You the guy i'm supposed to meet?
What do you want?
No. I just noticed that, uh...
- What? - No. Nothing.
Sorry about that.
- Thanks. - Yeah.
Guess you're not his type.
Oh, you think?
Okay, Sarah.
All right.
I love you, Sarah.
I love you more.
- Have a good day at work, dad. - You, too.
Come on. Come on.
What happened to your face, sunshine?
You ought to see the other guy.
I'd like to. Believe me.
You gonna karate chop his ass?
Yeah. Something like that, sunshine.
I'm gonna tell him his day of reckoning is coming.
Go in there.
Go.
That's my son.
He's getting drug tested on wednesday.
And then I wonder.
You gave me this gift of always seeing them.
Why don't you always let em see me?
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Transcripted by chamallow35
"The Things We Didn't Plan"
So, what's he on?
Cocaine.
Alcohol.
Could be more.
Now, does he know you're, uh... You're reaching out to me?
- Why not? - We don't speak.
I found out about his problem, tried to get him help.
Any contact at all with him since then?
No. We see each other on the job, but we don't speak.
Well, listen, I got to be really honest with you. Grabbing a cop...
- Never easy. - It's like anyone else.
Yeah, except for the gun and the whole above-the-law thing, sure.
But you'll do it.
Well, I have a feeling I can't say no.
I'm not trying to threaten you. I just need my son
to get clean
so he can pass that test.
He comes to this diner all the time.
Every day, just like clockwork
- Understood. - Hey,
thanks for meeting me. I appreciate it.
Hey, hey. Hey, hey.
- I got you a white instead of green, right? - Oh, thanks.
I noticed the green made you a little anxious.
You noticed that?
Oh, I know you just think I'm a great-looking pair of skinny jeans
hanging around here all day, but, uh... Uh...
- Not eating wheat. - It's gluten free.
Got it from that bakery on washington you love.
Hey, I need your truck. Switch cars with me?
Why?
'cause I need to pick up something that won't fit in my car.
- Where you going? - Nowhere.
Huh. I been there.
Great view.
- So, you want to take a ride? - Don't crash it.
Back again?
Oh, you noticed.
I notice everyone in my line of work.
Have a seat.
Oh, is that right?
All right, well, what do you, uh...
What do you notice about him?
Oh, he's left-handed, but eats right.
Come on.
Yeah, he's wearing his watch on his right wrist.
Look which leg his napkin's sitting on.
If he was gonna eat left-handed, his napkin would be on his right leg
so he wouldn't have to put down his fork to wipe his mouth.
- You're pretty good. - Thank you.
- What about me? What, uh... What do you see? - Ten years sober.
- What? - Your coin.
Right, okay.
I get a lot of guys coming in after meetings.
Well, hey, a little fellowship never hurt anybody, right?
Yeah. I've been to a few myself.
- Maybe we could go to one sometime together? - Maybe we could.
See?
You didn't notice.
Uh, excuse me.
Gonna try again, huh?
Excuse me?
- I, uh... I saw you here earlier today. - Something you need help with?
I know you got a drug test coming up. And I know that...
- Who you working for, huh? - My name is William Banks.
- Ask some of the guys on the force about me. - Yeah, what'll they say?
They all know where to find me.
Hopefully, if you're trying to get clean, no question asked, i'm the guy.
Look, leonard, listen to me. I know you got a test coming up. All right? I can flush you out.
Yeah? Then what?
Then get you sober.
- I got everything under control. - How's that working out for you?
- I got it under control. - Yeah, I can see that.
Just like I can see your gums bleeding.
Look, I'm not looking for some holy roller to come through here and tell me all my sins will be washed away if I just...
How I roll ain't holy, brother, but I do have an obligation to tell you you cannot do this on your own.
- Who sent you to me? - Your father.
- No, he didn't. - Your father, Franklin, asked me...
- My father needs to stay the hell away from you. - Leonard, listen to me.
And more importantly, he needs to stay the hell away from me, okay?
Yeah, this is, uh,
definitely nowhere.
And that's nobody. Nobody nowhere?
And we are going to put nobody in this truck and take her somewhere.
Because we're picking up homeless people now, is that it?
I've been walking by that woman nearly every day for two years. Two years.
I buy her water, her dog snacks.
And today?
Today somebody beat her up. So today, she need somebody to stick up for her.
Uh, did you happen to tell anybody else about this?
- Nope. - No.
- Do you think he is going to be into it? - Nope.
- Do you think she's gonna be into it? - No.
God, I love the way you think.
Sunshine! What's up?
Hey, Foxy.
- I found something out about you. - What?
- That's piss you're drinking. - It is not!
So you make me waste it 'cause you said that's what it was. It's not what it is.
- I have an idea. - What?
You want to take a ride?
Okay, guess we can get going, now that the St. Andrews kids are here.
- You guys have a good day? - It was okay. Yeah, thanks, terry.
So, do you teach or play?
Play.
Yeah.
Yeah, I thought you might look a little old to be teaching.
Um, what do you play?
Mozart, Dvorak. I'm learning Chopin.
Oh. Like Charlie Chopin?
Tough crowd.
So, uh...
Where do you rehearse at?
My dad. He teaches me.
He sells pianos at Pico Street Pianos.
Is your mom a musician, too?
No.
Hey, dad!
We got back our spelling tests. I got a hundred percent.
Did you hear me, dad? I, uh, I got a perfect score.
Sweetie.
You should celebrate.
Excuse me?
You should take your daughter out and celebrate.
That is, uh, if you think you can stay sober long enough to do that.
My name is Arnie Swenton.
- What is this? - Help.
With what?
With your thermos, buddy.
Look, I saw you this morning, drunk,
and your daughter was taking care of you. I see you again now,
and your daughter's still taking care of you.
Okay, get your stuff together, come on. Let's... let's go.
Look, I'm telling you right here, right now,
I am your last, best chance
to get your world together before it falls apart.
This is our stop, Sarah.
Please, stay on the bus, sir.
Please, just give me a chance to help you change your life.
Change your daughter's life.
Sir, please,
stay on the bus.
- Scooter! Scooter! Come here! - Hey, hey. What are you doing in here?
- This your dog? - No, he's sunshine's.
Okay, who-who's sunshine?
Um, I think she said she used to live in her car, but now she's in back.
In back here?
- Yeah. - And who are you?
- I'm Sarah. My dad's in back, too. - With sunshine?
- Yeah. - And his name?
- Harrison. - And he lives in the car with her?
- No, we live in an apartment. - Right, right, okay.
Stop, stop, stop. Look at what you did.
You were right.
Couldn't do it alone.
You think you can get me clean?
Get me clean.
I just need to take care of a few things while my dad's staying with you guys.
Sure you don't want something to drink?
No, we're, we're okay. Thanks.
I have to write two checks today.
So, where's your mom?
She died when I was a baby.
So, it's just you and your dad living here?
I have to practice my piano, as well.
Hey, harrison? You need anything?
I... I need to go home now.
- Look, I... I know it's uncomfortable. - No, I-i'm fine. I just, uh...
I... I... I met your man on the bus,
and I got caught up in the moment, but this is a mistake, because, uh...
- Just take a seat, man. - I, um... I... I don't have a problem.
I... I don't.
- You'll be all right. - I don't have a problem that warrants...
- Just take it easy. Just take it easy. - Just want to go home.
I need to go home.
- Leonard. - Hey.
Wake up. Just got your test results.
Oh, yeah? What came back?
Let's put it this way. We could smoke your hair and get totally wasted.
Now, I just took you off the chloral hydrate,
but I'm gonna have to keep pushing the fluids hard to flush this shit out.
We want to get you clean for that test next week.
Look, the levels of narcotics in your system should have killed you.
But like all good addicts, you've built up a tolerance.
- How long is this gonna take? - 18 hours to get everything out of your system.
18 hours.
Short-term solution to a permanent problem.
- Yeah. I'm not here for therapy. - You might want to think about it.
Get some help, start a program.
I don't need help. Don't need a program.
I just need you to do your job and flush me out.
It's nice to have a bath.
I mean, I get showers and everything at the Y or at the shelter, but...
I made a few calls for you today about a sober living house.
- Rehab? - No.
In Pasadena.
It's a safe place where you come and go during the day.
You have meals, people to help you.
I can't afford nothing like that.
Well, don't worry about it, sunshine, 'cause this is covered.
Right. Nothing's free.
Well, this... is.
Scooter?
You want a yard? Would you like a yard?
They don't allow dogs there, sunshine.
Well, then I ain't going.
- There's a shelter that will take care of him. - No.
Come on.
He needs me.
- Do you want to think about this? - He needs me.
Give me a towel.
Now.
Let's say we get you flushed out in time to pass your drug test.
Great.
I'm guessing the second you walk out of that test, you score and binge.
Yeah.
Well, this isn't the kind of pain that you ever build up a tolerance for.
- Get out. - It ain't ever gonna get any better.
- Get out. - It ain't ever gonna hurt less.
Get out!
I don't know what to do about this little girl, bro.
I can't even really call her a little girl because she's so self-sufficient, it's scary.
Look, she's the child of an alcoholic, right?
Don't confuse her ability to survive with maturity.
Get some rest.
Sometimes I don't know how any of them...
or any of us
survive.
If I could just reach inside these people and take away their pain,
remove the one thing that's hurting them the most,
i'd do it.
Offer them the relief and comfort they need
so they don't have to hurt anymore.
Hello?
What do I owe you?
- For your services, what do I owe you? - Just expenses.
- Are you sure about that? - $600.
You guys really think this through?
You think this is the best plan for your son?
It's the only plan, Mr. Banks.
Leonard.
- Thank you for agreeing to make this effort for... - I can't talk to you now.
Okay.
Well...
Thank you for your help.
Split this with swenton.
I don't want it.
I don't know how I can still be drinking.
I take one look at Sarah. I know there is nothing more important to me
in this world than she is.
And still knowing that,
I know I can't stop drinking.
So, you know, I really... I have
to ask what's, uh... What's more important, really.
Really.
- Right? - Well, listen, Harrison,
we don't want to have to call child protective services.
- No. - 'Cause once she goes into the foster care system...
Wait. Wh... what are our other options, then?
Honestly...
There aren't any. Well...
Hey, dad.
You need to change.
All right.
Ah, man, I don't know how I ended up here.
Look, how you got here isn't important.
What you do when you get out is.
But what are we gonna do with Sarah?
Uh... I have a sister-in-law
in Valencia.
Dude!
Hey, hey, you need a key for that.
- Sunshine? Everything okay? - No! I'm not okay!
I feel like crap la mode.
Yeah, well, that's just the, uh, alcohol leaving your body.
I...
I don't like it here.
Well, is there anything I can do to make it better?
You can open up that front door and let me go.
There're no locks on my front door.
Tell Akani I said bye.
Hey, wait. Hold... hold it. Where you gonna go?
Gq...
I know I ain't got much. Hell, I got... I got less than nothing,
but it's mine.
I own it,
and I don't owe nothing on it.
You still didn't answer my question.
I know... I know that this don't make no sense.
What does?
Hmm?
My dog, and, um...
my white wine,
and, uh...
the ocean.
And my car, all right?!
My car makes sense to me.
That's my home... my car.
Home!
Hey, you wanted to go home?
I want to keep you here.
This is what we call a compromise.
Cool?
When we find you a place you get your battery back.
Whatever, gq.
Passed the test.
Well...
If you ever need something, you got a friend here.
Yeah, thanks.
You need to eat.
Yeah, but I don't...
Your body probably doesn't even process solid food anymore, does it?
Is that your daughter?
Want to tell me where she lives?
I'm not looking to disrupt anyone's life.
I just thought that...
...maybe if we took scooter to her,
she might look after him for a few months until you're ready for your own place.
So, that cop comes in here every morning, right?
Yeah, twice a day.
So, uh, how long you been in the fixing game?
Oh, with the bikes and stuff? I guess about seven years.
No, no, no, not the motorcycles. The people.
Well, I... I don't... I don't really fix 'em.
Saying "fixing them" makes it sound like they're broken somehow.
You know, what I do is I...
I take the pieces that are already there, I kind of rearrange them a little bit,
and make 'em fit better.
I like that.
You know, I was... I was broken.
Before the legs. I was broken like that.
Living with my boyfriend slash dealer.
Heroin.
This would make great first date conversation.
- Better than mine. - Yeah?
- How would yours start? - Let's see,
uh, "after I got out of the joint, I relapsed with the heroin twice..."
"so after my dealer boyfriend got involved with the cops,
and I got shot in the back and I lost my legs..."
So, uh, how did that happen?
My boyfriend got a big shipment in.
Of course we had to try it. The next thing you know, the door comes flying off the hinges,
the place is swarming, there's all these cops.
We started running, the cops, they stole the dope and then they started shooting.
Did they ever... They ever catch the cops?
I mean, I had to ask, right?
You know why they didn't catch them?
I was really, really high.
I couldn't make a positive id, 'cause I was in a blackout.
So, uh, the cop... he skated away and I rolled.
- I heard you passed the test. - What were you doing in there?
- Having tea. - Why you talking to her?
- Leonard. - She talking about me?!
- Leonard, listen to me... - Was she, talking about me?
Whoa. Easy, Leonard.
You stay out of my shit.
Leonard, don't go in there.
Hey, Leonard! Let's go have some coffee somewhere. Huh? Somewhere else.
- What did she tell you? - Just that she got shot by a cop
in a drug bust, all right? That's it. That's all she knows.
It's all right.
It's not all right.
That's all wrong!
You're too high, Leonard. You're too high, man. Don't go in. Hey, Leonard.
I screwed up, man.
I'm so...
- I'm so messed up. - I can help you, Leonard.
I can help you.
I shot that woman.
You know, you really got this whole thing figured out, huh?
Well, don't let a few strategically- placed buckets fool you.
I'm going up in front of internal affairs.
My partner, he...
he was worse off than me.
He... got busted stealing drugs.
Started talking.
My name was the first one to come up.
Rst one they went after.
I didn't give them anything, you know.
They were gonna go after my dad.
Just to get to you?
I don't know what to do, William.
My dad had no idea.
No idea what we were doing.
He just wants to get you clean.
After the shooting, I lied to him.
He believed me.
He always believed me.
My grandfather was a cop, William.
My uncles, my cousins.
The way they would wear their uniforms.
That was total pride, man.
That blue,
when they put it on, it did something to them.
On me it just...
I don't know, it did something entirely different.
Every day I put 'em on, it scared the shit out of me.
Honestly,
I didn't know if the vest was there to stop the bullets from getting in
or stop my heart from jumping out of my chest or...
I want to stay here!
I need to go into sober living for just a little while.
But I'm still gonna work at the piano store.
But you've been living fine with me. I've been doing good, haven't i?
- I can take care of you... - You're doing better than good, sweetheart.
But you've been doing everything.
You can stay with me,
as long as you need.
Sarah, you can go and visit your dad anytime you want while he's getting better...
I don't want to visit him!
I want to stay with him! I want to stay with my dad!
Please, please don't get rid of me. Please, I'll do better.
- I can be good. - I'm not getting rid of you, darling.
I'm not getting rid of you.
- You acted like you were my friend! - I am.
- You acted like you cared! - Because I do.
- I hate you, Swenton. - No.
I hate you so much!
I want to stay with my dad!
- I want to stay with you! - I know. Okay.
It's all right.
- Please, dad, don't leave me! - It's gonna be all right.
Please, dad, please.
Why is this happening?
- Please, dad! - It's gonna be all right.
It's okay. It's all right. It's okay.
Look, I understand she needs help, but I don't want anything to do with her.
I'm sorry, I can't help you.
- Come on, scooter. - Guess they're not really good with dogs.
I can't believe she doesn't even care about her own mom.
Hey. Come on.
Am I the only one who wants you, too?
I'm pretty decent with animals. I feed Swenton twice a day.
Oh, that skinny thing?
- No, thank you. - Sunshine, it's only three months.
I appreciate it. I do.
But scooter's all I got.
Okay, well, then think about how much more you can give him when you're sober.
Thank you for having me.
And-and I'll take really good care of him.
And if you will ask that handsome gentleman to put my car battery back in my car.
I would like to go now.
I would like to go now!
- You're choosing a dog over your own life. - Oh, it is not that simple.
- Do you understand what I just said? - Yeah, I heard what you said. I'm not stupid.
Okay, well, then leave him here with me. While you go to sober living.
- Can't do that. - Why?
Scooter's the only thing in the world I got to take care of.
He's the only thing in the world that needs me.
Come on.
You're leaving?
I can't hide here.
Thank you.
So you go into internal affairs and lie, then what?
Back on the force?
Still addicted?
Who gets hurt next because of you, man?
How long before you hurt yourself?
See, 'cause it's all still gonna be out there.
All of it.
And you're gonna need more than a vest to hold you together.
What if I don't want to be held together anymore?
Then you were right.
- About? - Me knowing nothing.
But if I do...
And I know you go in there every day to stare at her...
Pay her 20 bucks for a donut...
Why don't you just talk to her?
Tell her the truth.
Okay, thank you.
No, thank you.
- Yes! - What's up?
I just found a dog-friendly sober house.
How awesome is that?!
- How awesome is that? - Awesome.
- All right... - Hey, what's up?
Uh, Sarah didn't show up for school this morning.
I'm gonna take care of it. I know where to find her.
Franklin.
How's my son?
Dad?
Thanks for bringing these in.
I'm going with you, whatever you need me for, Leonard.
I want to be there with you.
I got into this alone, pop. I gotta get out of it alone.
No, you don't.
Dad,
that night...
Is hearsay.
No.
No, it's not, pop. What they're accusing me of...
I did it, all of it.
No, no, you listen to me.
Your partner needed someone
- to take down. - Dad,
I did what they said.
I was stealing, I was using drugs.
That woman?
Dad, I shot the woman.
Dad, I was high, and I shot that woman.
Then I lied. I lied...
To my superiors and the investigators,
the lawyers.
I lied to you.
I'm gonna go to ia. I'm just gonna go in and tell 'em everything.
Then...
Why the dress blues?
'cause it's the first time i'm honoring the uniform, pop.
I need a moment alone with my boy.
I'm sorry, pop.
Sunshine!
Sunshine, you are gonna love me!
Come on, sunshine.
Nobody wants me.
I do.
- No. - I do.
Will you help me?
So, how you doing?
Honestly?
No idea.
Well, that's a pretty good place to start from.
Yeah.
What?
Were you this upbeat when you were trying to kick?
Puking in buckets, trying to get straight?
I was a train wreck, straight up.
But I got through it.
Came through the other side.
- And let me tell you something, brother... - If you can do it, anybody can do it, right?
Nah. I mean, sometimes this train still slams into the wall,
but only this time, I don't get thrown that far off the rails.
- And if you can do that, then guess what. - What?
- That's a pretty good place... - To start from, huh?
That's good to know.
Before I go to this hearing, could we, uh,
can we make a stop?
Yeah.
She's late.
I was gonna take her to school as soon as we finished.
Bye, dad.
- Bye. - Love you.
I love you more.
Your aunt's outside.
Whatever decision you make, whatever you want to do,
i'll live with it.
I've played this moment out in my head for years.
The drama,
the sadness,
the rage.
You know what?
It's not even about that.
All I ever wanted was the truth.
And you just gave me that.
You know,
the real truth is that...
I would have died a drug addict if I hadn't got shot that night.
It's not what I wanted to have happen,
but in a way, you...
You took me out of my old life
and you forced me into a new one.
Thank you.
When I started this gig, I thought people would come looking for me,
come looking for my help.
But the more I'm in it,
I realize it's me looking for them.
And I see them everywhere.
The faces of addiction are all around me, and I can't look away.
But whether these visions are a gift or a curse,
whether these people take my hand or not,
it's all two sides of the same...
Well, you know.
Transcripted by chamallow35 www.addic7ed.com